Psalm 3 Doubts

Doubts arise within me.
I call myself foolish and my faith, “wishful thinking.”
No lightning! Instead,
a warmth in my heart when I see
what could be Your work in others and in myself.
and a certain comfort when I give myself to sleep,
and a calm confidence in the face of trouble.

It does not matter what names I use for these good things.
It only matters that I notice them, follow them, enjoy them.

Psalm 63 Thirsting

My soul thirsts for you, O God
As my dehydrated body craves water.
But I can’t see you.
I often loose touch with your loving kindness
My longing for you is the only real evidence I have
that you are really here.

Still, I will seek You
Still, I will do Your work
Still, I will remember You from my bed,
when I meditate before I sleep
and when I wake in the night.

You have been my helper
I have taken refuge in the shadow of your wings.
Dispatch my fears, O God
help me find my center in You.
And I will rejoice.